Private message ( for Kuchiki_taichou )

It didn't take as long as I thought it would to clean the office. Well, it DID take a while, but that was my own fault, really. The cleaning part was easy on its own, but there was so much to do that had nothing to do with cleaning. He left so much of the division paperwork undone (even before his 'death') that I could nothing but throw it out. It didn't really matter anyway. Everything that 5th Division was involved in seems like a lie to me now.

Even so, I hope I don't get in trouble for that...

His personal things were harder to deal with for me. Every single thing he had in that office held a memory for me, even if it was just of me idly staring at it while I sat behind him as he worked. I admit, some of the memories were good ones, but even those were tainted by his betrayal. In the end, I tossed everything but the writing utensils he always used. Ironic, isn't it, me using them...

Now, nothing that was his remains in the offce or his old quarters. No reminder of the traitor. The odd thing is, I don't know how I feel about it, empty inside, or finally free.

I'd prefer to think the latter.

All that's left for me to do is wait. Wait for word from Kuchiki-taichou about my possible transfer. Wait for information about Aizen and the others. Wait to see Shirou-kun.

So much waiting.

Well. Awake and about, I guess.

It doesn't feel the same without Aizen-taichou him. I was foolish to have so much faith in him, but I can't allow myself the luxury to hide in this room forever. I have to check and make sure everyone is alright. I hope no one was hurt because of my foolishness.